I thought the pain chart scene in Breaking Bad could not get any worse but then I read the script and discover that Jesse was originally supposed to focus on the happy face instead of the sad one
nothing is ok
When I check the Breaking Bad archive on AO3 and see that there are no new updates my heart shrinks in my chest.
Almost every time I say cries or i’m sobbing i’m just exaggerating and i’m only upset but with Breaking Bad I’m never exaggerating. u better believe real tears slide down my face when I think about this show i mean
i have cried over other series’ before but I have never. cried. this hard over any of them. when i cry over breaking bad my face contorts into weird expressions, it is True Ugly Sobbing. it happens all the time too what the hell I cry when I watch it. I cry when I read fanfiction of it. I cry when I think about Jesse and how he got out alive but his life is so c o m p l e t e l y destroyed and how he’ll have PTSD and nightmares for the rest of his life and i just
Why. did things. have to turn out that way. how could i let this show happen to me. and why am I still so thirsty for it.
Today I bought my first bottle of wine. hell. frickin yeahh. Fruit-accented chardonnay. It’s so bitter but now it’s actually starting to taste better. Not sure if I’m getting used to it or it’s just the buzz talking.
Next time, champaagne.
September, yoga underwater. It took me 4 months to be comfortable enough to post this but I love these pictures so much. It was magic.